Today did NOT start off well at all.
You know one of those days where the reality of life just hits you all at once. You get a rush of negative thoughts that flood your brain and all of a sudden you feel like you're alone, not in control, and that the worse is about to happen.
I was out driving for Uber, and had to literally pull over to the side of the road and just burst into tears. Nothing bad or major had happened. It was just a whirlwind of things that I had been suppressing in my subconscious from the previous week.
My son starting to grow up and dealing with all the new challenges that comes with that. My blog and newly published online course that I was literally having to beg family and friends to support. My divorce process that hit a snag in the road. My bills that were overdue.
Suddenly I just felt like the weight of the world was on my shoulders and that I was all alone and no one cared. Thankfully, I keep my pocket bible in my vehicle and immediately opened it up. The first verse I saw was:
Psalm 42:11 (CEV): "Why am I discouraged? Why am I restless? I trust you! And I will praise you again because you help me, and you are my God."
It was just enough of a reminder to get me to stop crying, wipe my tears, and smile. Too often we have meltdown moments like these and too often we get "stuck" in those moments. And we let those moments turn into hours, days, weeks, or maybe even months.
But, God is teaching me that I'm NEVER alone.
Even on the toughest of days. When you feel like you have no support. Friends won't text or call you back. Family is nowhere to be found. You're handling your problems and everyone else's. Work literally sucks and coworkers are getting on your nerves. Your children give you hell. Or when everything in the world that could go wrong, does go wrong.
Yes - even on those days - God is still there!
I'll be the first to admit that being a single mom is by far the most challenging thing I've ever had to do. But, I'm grateful that when these moments of emotional breakdown, frustration, sadness, and even anger arise, that I quickly turn them into "mirror moments" by reflecting on the God's Word.
For it is then, and ONLY then, that God reminds me that I'm not in this by myself. In fact, He knew I was going to have the meltdown. He knew what was going to trigger the meltdown. But, most importantly He knew He would be with me through the meltdown. And, He even sees my testimony coming down the road after I push through several meltdowns.
God doesn't give us anything in this life that we can't handle with His strength. As Christians, we have access to God 24/7, 365 days a year, 7 days a week. To miss out on such a privilege or benefit would only happen if and when we ourselves neglect to utilize our access.
As Christians, God NEVER leaves us, but for whatever reason we like to "leave" Him and try to do life on our own.
Trust me, life would be 10 times easier, not to mention better, if we simply trust that God is always by our side. And then cling to Him by clinging to His Word. Not just when things get tough, but all day, every day. In every way. There is no reason for Christians to live like we are alone. Like we are without God.