My Best Friend

woman with raised hands toward the sky

Started from the bottom
Now I’m here
Ain’t nothing I did
Just the God that I fear

Saved me when I was twelve
Embraced me with open arms
Changed my entire household
Silencing my spiritual alarms

Like a flood, pouring in His love
Bringing our spiritual pain to an end
Didn’t erase all my problems
But took them on for me – my best friend

Just in time for my teenage years
I was a quiet, short, nerd
Picked on, laughed at,
But my tears every night He heard

Committed to saving myself for marriage
Was the dumbest thing to my peers back then
But thanks to His strength
I remained dedicated – my best friend

Senior year finally came
Couldn’t wait to change scenes
Graduated valedictorian, yet went to a Bible college
To fulfill my own personal dreams

Another big mistake – or so they said
“you could be a doctor, lawyer, anything in life,
Why in the world would you get a biblical degree,
Graduate, and go on to become a preacher’s wife?”

But you see, from the moment He chose me
I’ve been captured, for a higher purpose – a greater end
Had to follow His Will, His plan
Ain’t no other way to live except for my best friend

Started a church, went from 4 to 100 members plus
Marriage, ministry, career, finances – all flourishing bright
God’s blessings pouring in daily
And then my son was born – an amazing sight!

But fast forward to the rough waters
Yes- I’d be lying if I didn’t mention the bad
The storms of life hit all at once
Literally 100 to 0 overnight – losing everything I had

No home, no car, no husband, no church
Like a horrible nightmare that just wouldn’t end
“Turn your back on God”, they said
But even on my worst day, I still knew God was my best friend

Hands down that was the hardest year of my life
Broken, humbled, molded, and reshaped by my heavenly guide
Yes – it hurt, I cried, died inside and fell apart
But never forgotten, unloved, abandoned or tossed aside

His Word became my focus
More than ever before
I fed off Him day and night
My hurts fading, strength beginning to soar

You see, drugs, smoking, money nor sex
Could fill my void or erase the pain
Couldn’t cure my bitterness, fix my problems
Or settle my mind to make me feel sane

In fact, nothing compares to the love,
Forgiveness, peace or joy He lends
His presence all around me daily
No one like my best friend

See He’s been with me through everything
The good, the bad, the ugly, the sad
Whether I was depressed, discouraged,
Happy, excited, pissed off or mad

My one and only constant in this life
Which is why our relationship will never end
Ain’t nobody got my back at all times
Besides my God, my Savior, my best friend!

quote of matthew 28:20
My Best Friend